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A Woman’s Hands

When I see my hands with nails long and feminized 

I imagine them weaving their way 

through the hairs on a man’s chest delighting in the contrast 

Me Jane, You Tarzan

Then my nails snag and get filed to a much more practical length 

Enough with this daydreaming!

There is work to be done. 

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