fromthemouthofmoi

I have recently come full circle. I have returned to where I began. I took notes for the last 50 years insuring I had records I could return to should I forget. What took years to understand, I understand. What I had no words for, no right to, no power against, I stand today with a straight spine. I learned my lessons well. I am ready for death. What is a life? Is it time well spent? Is it spent consciously? Or do we spend it unconsciously hoping for the best? I came full circle returning to what I knew best. I returned with lingering melancholia and an ever present lachrymose air. I returned looking, testing, hoping to see, wanting to see, if things had changed. They have. I returned with a strength I once did not have. I returned knowing I did not have to stay. I returned with the full knowledge that it was you and never me. That gem I tend to like large diamonds clutched close to my chest. I feel serene as if glowing with the accumulation of all things ancient and beautiful. I ...